Hamster Wheel

This morning, in The Daily Guidepost 2010 daily devotional book, I read the devotional from 6 days ago (obviously I got behind). The gist of the devotional was seeking God first and everything else will fall into place. Julia Attaway writes "(he fact is, if I live my priorities -God, family, community-and keep them in order, an awful lot of things fall off my to-do list on their own.".

Her words spoke volumes to me this morning at 5:15am. I am struggling with keeping my priorities in order - family tends to push in front of God. However, I get gentle nudges from the Big Fella to get them back in line. One nudge came this morning at 2:30am. Half asleep, I put Stacy back into his bed and agreed to lay down with him. As my head was settling in on the pillow, the most clear/wide-awake thought came into my mind: "I can't keep these hours much longer; I am tired." This hamster wheel that I am on - it is not what God designed us for. And that's what I feel like: a hamster running in its wheel. I feel as if I am missing out on so many things in life. Currently I am bored with my work. Same thing day in/day out - yes, every job is that way...however, what I do is really that way because for the most part they are all general eye exams ("better 1 or 2?)...or cataract evals.

The pace is not busy enough for me, and my given talent of administrative tasks is not tapped at all. I am plain bored. No, I do not want to o tain additional certificationa - I do not need something to do away from work. I need a career change, where I can still help; perform administrative/ coordinator type tasks;prioritize & reprioritize my work throughtput the day; and, finally not be tied to a schedule of patients.

Wow! That just went down a whole other road than I intended but to bring it back to my original point: life priorities and keeping them in proper order. I am debating with whether I am going to keep my FaceBook account active or not. Why, you may ask? I want to be less electronically connected / dependent. I could simply buckle down and only allow myself to check FB on the weekends. However, I know I would cheat !:) I feel like Andy & I are so electronically connected - it makes sick at times. We voluntarily disconnected our cable about 2 wks ago - I really don't miss it. More family time; more quiet time; more discussions, less vegging; more music in the house...to be continues
b/c finger hurt from typing this on my Blackberry.